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– Janaina

Simply put, our relationship has been saved and made stronger than ever before by working alongside Janaina. I can also say she has made me a better person.

8-10 session, Builder, Male

- I have done counselling for various reasons twice before meeting Janaina. Both times were great but I never truly connected with them like I did with here. This time around it was couples counselling. After the first meeting we felt that Janaina knew us both inside out and knew exactly what we needed to work on to get our relationship back on track. 8 or maybe 10 sessions later we all knew that me and my wife now had the tools to overcome the problems we were having. It is now 4 months later and me and my wife are getting along so will and now know how to help and support each other before the old cycle rears it's head. Not only that but we tackled individual problems in our lives which have made me feel so much more confident within myself. Simply put, our relationship has been saved and made stronger than ever before by working alongside Janaina. I can also say she has made me a better person. I cannot recommend her enough!

I was in a very dark place when I first met janaina but within a matter of just a few weeks she literally changed my life and I will be forever great full , she is so calm, understanding, actually just all round amazing, there isn’t enough praise I can give for janaina , absolutely highly recommended.

5, Shopping assistant, Female

Where do I start....Where do I start..... I was in a very dark place when I first met janaina but within a matter of just a few weeks she literally changed my life and I will be forever great full , she is so calm, understanding, actually just all round amazing, there isn't enough praise I can give for janaina , absolutely highly recommended. and I will be forever great full , she is so calm, understanding, actually just all round amazing, there isn't enough praise I can give for janaina , absolutely highly recommended.

I would definitely recommend her to family or friends as I feel this has helped me move on in my life.

8 sessions, Female

First time in counselling and I must say what a lovely lady to have experienced this with. Currently going through a divorce and Janaina made me feel relaxed, confident and I opened up more talking to her without feeling uncomfortable. I would definitely recommend her to family or friends as I feel this has helped me move on in my life.

Wow I really could not have hoped for a better therapist

6 sessions, Male

Janaina is such a warm and intuitive person and immediately made me feel at ease. I have had counselling in the past but nothing like this. She helped me through some challenges, help me to see things in a new light and ultimately helped me to be myself. I cannot recommend her services enough, she is a very special person!

I would definitely recommend her to family or friends as I feel this has helped me move on in my life.

8 Sessions, Male

Janaina’s empathy and teachings on how to use techniques to tap into my ability to navigate my thoughts have been truly amazing

8 Sessions, Male

It has been amazing working with Janaina. I cannot thank you enough. Before I worked with you, I had suffered from anxiety a lot throughout my life and it was impacting my life. I was in a very low place. Janaina’s empathy and teachings on how to use techniques to tap into my ability to navigate my thoughts have been truly amazing. I now have the tools to carry forward in my life. There is definitely a light at the end of the tunnel now. Thank you

Therapy with Janaína has helped me in learning lots of coping mechanisms strategies

8 Sessions, Female

I have learn really useful ways I can improve my thought process and help me in having a more positive outlook. Therapy with Janaína has helped me in learning lots of coping mechanisms strategies I can try in social situations that I was struggling with, and daily tools to implement in order to improve my overall well- being

We had initially seen another couples counsellor but we just didn’t click with them and dreaded the sessions

8 Sessions, They

We had things to work on, we were functioning fine as parents and professionals but weren't giving our relationship any priority and it was having an effect. I have seen Janaina in the past and she had supported me to better understand my chronic anxiety. We had initially seen another couples counsellor but we just didn't click with them and dreaded the sessions. We kept saying to each other "we need to find someone like Janaina" - and the penny dropped for us that we should just speak to Janaina. We'd hadn't realised she did couples therapy so were relieved to book in our first session with her. She really got to know us as a couple and teased out the things we weren't saying to each other. Our ways of communicating are so different and it's something we continue to work on daily, Janaina helped to address this, helping us reconnect and appreciate our feelings towards each other. It's given us the foundations to keep working on our relationship. We're so grateful to Janaina and highly, highly recommend her couples therapy services.

She showed me compassion, how to deal with my feelings and the trauma I experienced.

20 Sessions

This was my first time seeing a Therapist. Janaina helped me through a very difficult few months. She showed me compassion, how to deal with my feelings and the trauma I experienced. Her guidance and practice has helped me to a better place, I will be forever grateful.

I would recommend seeing Janaina if you have troubles in your relationship.

6, Male

I'm glad I seen Janaina in person for couples counselling with my partner. She is a professional and her office is comfortable. She helped us feel heard in a calming controlled environment. She give us some techniques to take away. I would recommend seeing Janaina if you have troubles in your relationship.

Amazing with the way she works, she knows exactly how to allow your brain to acknowledge and manage with issues that are embedded.

6, Paramedic, Male

Janaina has been amazing and had the exact therapies that I needed to deal with life issues. Amazing with the way she works, she knows exactly how to allow your brain to acknowledge and manage with issues that are embedded. Very professional. I would absolutely recommend this lovely lady to anyone that has any issues, whether mental health or issues with food, weight or anything else. Amazing.

I would definitely recommend her to family or friends as I feel this has helped me move on in my life.

4, PA, Female

My health has so much improved that I feel like a new chapter has finally begun for me.

10, Female

Janaina has been such an immense help. When we first started, I was trying to hang in there day for day. We tackled a lot of issues together and I felt safe and supported every step of the way. I will be forever grateful to have found her. My health has so much improved that I feel like a new chapter has finally begun for me.

It’s given us the foundations to keep working on our relationship. We’re so grateful to Janaina and highly, highly recommend her couples therapy services.

5, Scientist and project manager, Male and Female

My health has so much improved that I feel like a new chapter has finally begun for me.

6 Sessions, Female

Amazing, friendly and confident lady

6 Sessions, Female

I was unsure about talking to a counsellor. From the first session Janaina made me feel relaxed. This amazing, friendly and confident lady helped me to feel relaxed. Her professional approach allowed me to open up and discuss how I was feeling. My confidence and belief within each session gave me the strength to feel more positive about myself and understand what I needed to do to make my life whole again. Janina gave me tips on relaxation techniques and to take steps to get back on track. After the sessions I began to apply for jobs again in a profession I love. With the support from Janaina I was successful in achieving a new job. Words can't express my thanks for what she did during our sessions together.

Move on to the next part of my life with greater clarity and intention

15 Sessions, Male

Having realising that my life had become stuck I wanted to explore some of the deeper feelings relating to my situation. I took a good while to choose a therapist from the several that practice in this area. I chose Janaina because of the the emotion centred approach offered. This type of counselling needs some work on the part of the client in terms of understanding emotions well , which can take a while, but I am very pleased that I made that choice. Janaina is a very attentive listener and her very positive outlook helped to let me examine the situation and my feelings about it and then to be able to move on to the next part of my life with greater clarity and intention. I am very grateful for the help I have received.

Her enthusiasm and understanding was paramount in the growth of my wellbeing

5 Sessions, Teacher, Female

Just what I needed! Janaina opened my eyes to the fact that me has to come first. Her enthusiasm and understanding was paramount in the growth of my wellbeing . Being my first experience of counselling Janaina made me feel completely at ease and was conscious of my nerves in sessions meaning that it became a gradual process. Exercises that scared me were slowing introduced meaning that when I gained courage to part take in them they were highly affective as I was calm and prepared for them.

She helped me look at my anxiety with various techniques to help both manage and where possible prevent a panic attack.

20 Sessions, Male

I was sceptical at first. But Janaina worked with me to overcome the scepticism and helped me explore my emotions in a safe environment. She worked with me not just with the idea of helping the mind but by looking at how the wellness of the body can contribute. So from waking up and stretching to a healthy, regular diet. She helped me look at my anxiety with various techniques to help both manage and where possible prevent a panic attack. Janaina has been an amazing help for me over the past few months. She has helped me explore who I am, what I feel and did so while making sure I was comfortable at every step of the way.

She made me feel worthy again

6 Sessions, Female

Very friendly and caring, I didn't feel I was talking to a councillor, she felt like a friend. She made me feel worthy again and helped me work through my feelings and issues in my current and past life. I only wish NHS provided more than 6 free sessions. Highly recommended and a pleasure to know.

Felt very approachable and sincere empathy radiating from her.

6 Sessions, Occupation: Healthcare, Male

I was referred to Janaina by my GP. Because I was completely in a mode of emotional trauma which I was experiencing at the time, I felt that only antidepressants wouldn't be enough for me to sort myself out. I felt I needed counselling. So when I met Janaina and continued to have session with her after session I have gone through the journey of self-reflection and as well felt very approachable and sincere empathy radiating from her. It definitely helped me to see broader picture of my crisis and how to heal myself. I am very grateful to her and wish her all the best.

She has played a massive part in my recovery

12 Sessions, Female

Janaina is an amazing person. She instantly made me feel relaxed and not at all silly ( that's how I felt about going) from the first meeting she just asked small subtle things and them remembered everything!!!! She never writes anything down but remembers all you have said. Names dates etc. She has played a massive part in my recovery and she is someone who I will always remember fondly. Please please don't hesitate to see Janaina as you will soon feel as if your talking to a friend. Amazing lady.

I have learnt how to look at things in a different sort of way

6 Sessions, Female

Having these sessions with Janaina has helped me out a lot. I suffer with depression & anxiety & since meeting up with my councillor I have learnt how to look at things in a different sort of way. I feel I have come along way since 1st meeting with Janaina & would like to thank you personally for all the time & effort you put into helping me get better thank you so much for just being there xx

I always come out of the meetings feeling a lot better

My experience with Janaina has been wonderful. I love talking to her and I always come out of the meetings feeling a lot better and more clear headed and relaxed. She is a great person to talk to and a good listener. Number of sessions: 6 Female

She has helped me so much

She has helped me so much Number of sessions: 6 Female

Janaina has an enthusiastic energy which adds to the ease of attending the sessions

6 Sessions, Swansea, Male

The counselling sessions with Janaina have been eye opening. At first, I felt anxious but I gradually gained the confidence to open up and quickly looked forward to the meetings. Janaina attentively helped revaluate a new perspective and gave direction on how to approach various past and future experiences. Amongst these, included, breathing techniques, that I'd also incorporated into life outside the sessions. Janaina has an enthusiastic energy which adds to the ease of attending the sessions and is a pure blessing to have as a counsellor. I will miss the sessions and give my dearest appreciation. Thankyou Janaina and Esperansa. Highly recommended. Kindest regards.

Janaina certainly has a way of making you see things and face up to them than is not intrusive

6 Sessions, Male

I was seen by this therapist for a total of six sessions, these were spread over a period of 10 weeks, which I found really worked well for me because it gave me time to think about the subjects that were discussed and how they had affected my life!!!. I was really impressed in the way I was brought out of myself to a stage that at a 60th birthday party I ended up crying with someone who had recently lost their father, my father passed away in 1996 and I had not shed a tear over my father up until that moment. I felt that six sessions are not enough as i felt that a lot more needs to be covered as I have had a lot of drama in my life that we barely covered and we did not even touch on my feelings regarding my mother who died when I was 12. I would gladly refer anyone who is suffering from depression to this practice as Janaina certainly has a way of making you see things and face up to them than is not intrusive but she gets you talking about feelings that you have kept dormant for so many years.

Janaina has given me a torch to locate the light switch.

6 Sessions, Musician, Male

There comes a time in life,we we all need a helping hand through life's struggles,they become overwhelming to a point where one cannot find their way out of the dark,Janaina has given me a torch to locate the light switch. After spending time with Janaina,I have started to see a new outlook on life and more importantly a sense of self respect,a very important value to aid us on our travels through life. It's a long road to travel but at least I am now on my way,thank you very much Janaina for your help and guidance.

I cannot put into words what janaina has helped me face

8 Sessions, Male

I cannot put into words what janaina has helped me face, I'm still along way from being myself but with her help I'm starting to gain control where there wasent any before due to purgurous social worker swaying the courts verdict to falsly addopt my daughter to god knows who in this world! If wasent for janina I either wouldent be here now to write this or would be locked away for a very long time. I thank her with all I am in my heart and thankfull for her continued help Mr B.F

I will remember this lady for the rest of my life because ultimately she saved my life.

6 Sessions, Occupation: Porter, Male

Firstly, I was a very reluctant participant thinking absolutely that counselling was not for me. However after the first session Janaina put me completely at ease and within a couple of weeks I was able to complete small tasks that I hadn't been able to do for a long time. She was able to help me confront a lot of personal issues and give me the tools that enabled me to cope with everyday life resulting in me feeling able to return to some normality even considering going back to work which I didn't think I would ever be able to do. I truly believe that without my time with Janaina that I would have given up the fight and am extremely grateful that I had the opportunity to have these sessions. I will remember this lady for the rest of my life because ultimately she saved my life.

After leaving each session I felt revealed and motivated

5 Session, Student, Female

I have always been terrified at the thought of counselling. It came to a point where I had no other option. Since having sessions with Janaina, she has taught me how to love myself and to always put my happiness first. She is such a warm and genuine person, you can just sense her main priority is to help people in need. After leaving each session I felt revealed and motivated to finally put my happiness first and to concentrate on the positives in my life . Janaina, thank you for all your help and support, I can't thank you enough for helping me get to where I am today.

She helped me through one of my toughest times in my life

9 Sessions, Student, Female

I recall thralling through google trying to find a therapist in Swansea and feeling hopeless. I was depressed, binge eating regularly and suffering from low self esteem. I was tired of the cycle which I felt trapped in. Then I met Janaina...truly a gift from above. I felt really connected to her and she helped me through one of my toughest times in my life. She is compassionate and understanding. I will honestly recommended her to all.

Helped me to be more confident

6 Sessions, Student, Female

Janaina helped me to realise how unfair I was being on myself and helped me to be more confident in asking for what I want. She listened kindly and gave excellent advice. I am now working hard towards the life I want.

The counselling sessions with Janaina have been eye opening, I will miss the sessions and give my dearest appreciation

6 Sessions, Swansea, Female

She gets you talking about feelings that you have kept dormant for so many years.

6 Sessions, Swansea, Male

After spending time with Janaina,I have started to see a new outlook on life and more importantly a sense of self respect

6 Sessions, Musician, Male

There comes a time in life, we we all need a helping hand through life's struggles, they become overwhelming to a point where one cannot find their way out of the dark, Janaina has given me a torch to locate the light switch. After spending time with Janaina, I have started to see a new outlook on life and more importantly a sense of self respect, a very important value to aid us on our travels through life. It's a long road to travel but at least I am now on my way, thank you very much Janaina for your help and guidance.

If wasent for janina I either wouldent be here now to write this or would be locked away for a very long time

6 Sessions, Swansea, Male

I cannot put into words what Janaina has helped me face, I'm still along way from being myself but with her help I'm starting to gain control where there wasn't any before due to perjurious social worker swaying the courts verdict to falsely adopt my daughter to god knows who in this world! If wasn't for Janaina I either wouldn't be here now to write this or would be locked away for a very long time. I thank her with all I am in my heart and thankful for her continued help Mr B.F

I will remember this lady for the rest of my life because ultimately she saved my life.

She is such a warm and genuine person, you can just sense her main priority is to help people in need.

The authentic human conection with is what helps me the most

Janaina has a warm, passionate and non-judgmental attitude in therapy, which I benefit hugely. I feel am cared for and encouraged positively by her while she walked me through my dark days. The authentic human connection with her is what helps me the most. There are also some very insightful and helpful excises and reading materials she shared to boost my inner strength. From: Shanghai Number of sessions: 7 Excellent service

Our sessions were deep, inspirational and happily energized

After reviewing a number of potential counsellors I could say that I chose Janaina and Esperansa because of her broad experience in Humanistic and existential experiences, but really it was because her character connected with me through her thoughtful website; and meeting her face to face confirmed how genuinely she had portrayed her self, her intent and her ability to help. After many years of meditation I had a specific search that I wanted to perform and felt that I needed a guide to help me explore my inner being. Janaina proved to be the perfect guide, who stood beside me and gave me strength while pointing out opportunities as we delved into my emotional channels. Our sessions were deep, inspirational and happily energised which have given me the foundation to explore my emotional energies on my own. We have energised my pool of inner sadness to one of great opportunity. From my experience, Janaina is more than 'just' a counsellor, she is a helping hand for anyone looking for deeper meaning, for inner progress, and for establishing love for our higher conscious Self. Thank you for a great journey together.

Janaina has helped me to find the confidence and happiness within me to live my life

I can not tell you how grateful I am to Janaina, during my 7 sessions with her she really did make me feel I was able to talk about things I really never thought I would, Janaina had a knack of helping me talk about things that I really find difficult , the things that made it difficult to live my life as me! I can honestly say that Janaina has helped me to find the confidence and happiness within me to live my life, I only wish I had done it sooner! Thank you so very much! Number of sessions: 7 Occupation: education Female, Neath

I am now more than just functioning, I can understand myself better!

Janaina was an absolute pleasure to work with. This was my second set of counselling, first with Janaina. She offered me a person who I could freely speak with, gave me comfortable options of what we could do in each session and read my mood with an uncanny ability to get me to speak about things I didn't realize were a problem, until they were coming out of my mouth. I am now more than just functioning, I can understand myself better, what I do and don't need and give myself a break...No one is perfect and that is completely fine!

I am feeling confident and alive again

I was on confusion, depression and guilt, when i was referred to Janaina as my counsellor, i realised i wasn't living on present, i was hunted with the past and the future. But Janaina turned my life around and i found the true purpose to live my life for the present which will reflect on my future. She made me realise that on what i have been through, i was not broken but bent and was in the process on straightening up completely. She is one of a special lady to have met because she has changed my life and now I am feeling confident and alive again. What she shared with me is something that i will always use in my life, and overcome all the challenges of this life. Number of sessions - 6 Occupation - Student Female, Swansea

Changed my life forever

I have always struggled with self esteem and anger. My sessions with Janaina have helped me to look at myself and be kind to myself and has given me the tools I require. Just having someone to listen to me and help me to look at myself in a positive light has made me feel so much better about myself and shown me that I can forgive myself for mistakes I have made over the years. I cannot thank Janaina enough for helping me change my life I will be forever grateful. Number of sessions - 6 Occupation - Manager Female, Swansea

Help me to find the issues

Very friendly and able to put you at ease. Built up a good rapport quickly and helped me to find the issues and how to learn to deal with them in an effective manner. Number of sessions - 6 Occupation - Student Female, Swansea

Six sessions with Janaina has completely turned my life around

This lady is a wonderful, amazing lady, I first went to see Janaina back in July with severe depression and no self worth. After being in 6 sessions with this lady she has completely turned my life around, not by talking too much really but by showing me that I am worth something and she helped me connecting with my inner self, to be able to help myself. This lady is truly amazing I now feel that with everything that Janaina taught me I can go through everyday feeling good and not just ok or low and down. She showed me how to connect with myself and this is a wonderful gift from her that I use on a daily basis to kick start and at the end my day. I couldnt praise this lady enough, I would like to thank her for everything no words would ever describe how thankful and greatfull to Janaina I am. She is one in a million and a absolute God send, thank you again. I am truly blessed to have met you! Number of sessions - 6 Occupation - Adult learner Female, Swansea

My outlook on life has completely changed

My outlook on life has completely changed after just over 2 months of counselling with Janaina. Having struggled with anxiety for a number of years, was completely petrified of seeking help, however, after 5 minutes being with Janaina I was able to be completely honest and not feel as if I was being judged or being irrational in feeling how I was. She helped me to understand how to like myself again and how to avoid fear of things that may/may not happen taking over my life. Honestly cant thank her enough! Number of sessions: 8 Ocuppation- Professional Male - Swansea

I’ve got the old me back

I was so apprehensive with contacting a counsellor but Janaina made me feel so at ease and more important for me she listened and that was so important for me and helped me deal with my issues. I’m so happy I contacted Janaina and went through with my decision to have counselling with her, I’ve got the old me back and that means so much and it’s all thanks to Janaina. She’s a very special person and has had such a positive affect on my life. Thank you so much.

I was lost inside

Before I met Janaina I thought I don’t need counselling, I was sceptical about it. I had a depression, mental health problems, suicidal thoughts, low self-esteem, issues with relationships, I didn’t know what I wanted in my life, I was lost inside. Janaina helped me to change myself from who people want me to be to a person that is doing with her life what she want to. She really cares about the client feelings, she helped me to get through difficult time of my life and make me feel worthy again. I truly recommend her.

I have found myself!

I decided to enter counselling as I was struggling with my confidence in my work environment and was feeling very low. My self esteem was rock bottom and I was looking at everything through a negative lens. Janaina listened to me non judgmentally and helped me find my self worth again whilst giving me the confidence to make the changes that I needed. She is very caring and I have already recommended her to others.

Make sense of my emotions

My counselling sessions with Janaina enabled me to make sense of my emotions, and helped me raise my awareness of my feeling and how to react to them. She has a way of making you feel relaxed and at ease which enables you to open up and share your concerns and worries. Janaina is a special person and I wholeheartedly thank her for her support throughout my sessions. Thank you very very much.

I was past rock bottom

I had tried to kill myself. I was past rock bottom. But Janaina helped me see my past so that I could get on. But amazing people, thank you.

I know who I am

Working with Janaina has completely turned my life around. When I first started I was a mess, I didn’t know who I was and my trauma was affecting my day to day life, but now I can get on with my life with ease. I can look in the mirror and know who I am, I’m no longer trapped within myself she set me free. I will forever be grateful! Thank you!

Helped me to help myself

Janaina was understanding and has helped me to help myself. She is wonderful at her work. She is non-judgemental, acutely listens, I leave the sessions feeling ready to take on the world and that I am not alone. I wouldn’t be here without all the help and support that I have received.

No Judgement at all

Janaina has the ability to show that we could work in a safe and caring environment. She listens with absolutely no judgement at all. Now I feel more in control of my feelings and more social at present. I am now more aware of my fears and I am being to believe in myself. I recommend this service I have tried other therapy but this is most benefit I have felt

100% Positive

I felt that my counselling with Janaina addressed all that has happened in my life, it has made me stronger and my outlook and my outlook in life is 100% positive, my life has changed for the best

Counselling does work

Before Janaina I had no faith in counselling. After seeing Janaina I now believe that counselling does work when the counsellor is as compassionate, intelligent and skilled as Janaina. She helped me to get to the root cause of my problems and literally it has changed me as a person. Janaina is the standard-bearer that every counsellor should live up too!

I feel happier

I no longer feel worthless, I feel happier. Hearing positive remarks from Janaina and feeling like she honestly believe in me has made a massive difference to me. It has all been brilliant and impacted on me in a positive way

Hope for the Future

Now I have confidence and hope for the future. Janaina`s service has boosted my advanced social skills helping my anxiety. It made me feel I can complete anything on my own and not be worried about it at all. It has given me the confidence to go to college and helped me to find a job. I think the service was excellent and I recommend to everyone.

Highest Calibre

Janaina has helped me to gain a new perspective on the way I view my relationships with others and not to feel guilty for attending to me. Janaina is a warm practitioner and has a natural ability to connect on a human level, I would highly recommend Janaina as a Counsellor she is of the highest calibre.

Truly Inspirational

Janaina is a special lady who changed my life. She brought me back from the depths of depression. I looked forward to my sessions with her as she always brought a smile to my face. I can now LIVE my day to day life with excitement not dread. I can’t thank her enough for the way she’s helped me change my outlook. Truly inspirational.

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Janaina is a special breed. She brings empathy and understanding. She never judges and has a very good memory recalling things in a personable way. I never have to repeat things as Janaina always remember people and events and stories. She makes me feel valued and never rushes me.

If everyone would be lucky to have a “Janaina” in their life we will be all very wholesome emotionally free human beings. Janaina helped and encouraged me to unlock the sadness, trauma and loss I sustained in my life. She helped me realise my emotions were important to feel, crying and anger are both perfectly normal to express.

Janaina allows me to feel safe and in control enough to feel my emotions and gives me the strength to see my experiences with clear eyes and helps me find the power within myself to own my real feelings after years of avoidance as I have been brought up be feel not worthy enough to have emotions for any experience good or bad. The work with Janaina freed the burden my locked emotions and feelings had on me enough to feel confidence for applying for work.

Without working with Janaina I would still be volunteering and not in salaried work as I would not have felt worthy enough to hold a paid job nor even feel worthy to write my CV and attend an interview.